Never Alone

Sheol Ps 139:8 God is always there.....no matter what you do or where you go.
For those who feel that they are far from His reach...... I pray that this prayer will be a comfort to you.

Sheol Ps. 139:8 (read below)

Oh Lord you know my every move. Some are heroic and others pathetic and cowardly, most of the time it seems to be the latter two. You have followed me even so and have never given up on me and what I could do and become in my life. More times than not I have turned from all the life I know, the goodness you provide only to head back down into the depths and seem prone to do it over and over . And over and over I find you there waiting as if you knew I would be going there again.

My darkest days are light to you and you deal with me even still. Make me stronger God give me strength that will sustain, it seems to seep so fast..... I am weak and it is dark again. Cover me with your blood that restores and drowns my shame . Save me from myself. How merciful you are that you never leave me alone, you are there wherever I go even if it is into Sheol.

**God is omnipresent so he is already there. You know - in the middle of your mess up, your darkest day, your worst mistake. You are never too far from His intervention and a second chance, (or however many you need)
K : )
Psalm 139 : 1-8
1 Lord, You have searched me and known me. 2 You know when I sit down and when I stand up;
You understand my thoughts from far away. 3 You observe my travels and my rest;
You are aware of all my ways. 4 Before a word is on my tongue,
You know all about it, Lord. 5 You have encircled me;
You have placed Your hand on me. 6 [This] extraordinary knowledge is beyond me.
It is lofty; I am unable to [reach] it.
7 Where can I go to escape Your Spirit?
Where can I flee from Your presence? 8 If I go up to heaven, You are there;
if I make my bed in Sheol, You are there.

**Sheol in Hebrew meant (an open grave)

Fill My Cup

In writing lyrics for this project I am compelled to write about my own life and things I struggle with and have struggled with in the past.

Searching through old journals tonight I am reminded of how far I have come. Really how long it has taken me to arrive at a better understanding of who I am. Flipping through pages of years past it seemed as if I were reading about a girl that I did not know. And I want to help her. I want to tell her that she has been decieved by world standards and the truth is something far different.... what she has bought into is a lie! What her soul is thirsty for can not be quenched anywhere she has been pre-occupied looking.....but in the words of a book she had abandoned.

I wish I could say that "You Define Me" was a song that I wrote, a project I started when I had found the formula to complete "acceptance of self". No pressures on any turn. The truth about me is in God's word. It clearly says that I am fearfully and wonderfully made, God thinks I am beautiful, He has a plan for me and that’s all that matters….....certainly nothing the world could offer or say touch me. I am going to go with my gut and continue to be as transparent through this process as I feel led to do. The struggle with silencing those pressures could possibly be my greatest weakness and even those closest to me in my life know of it’s intensity. Sometimes the hardest thing for me to deal with is when someone that I have just met finds me out. I mean....a girl who writes about "not caring" what the world says and claims to be "totally satisfied" is supposed to have arrived at that place of complete rest with herself....:p But reality is I face the pressure head on....every single day, and I can not tell you that "contentment" and total "acceptance of self" are always the outcome.

“You Define Me” is not a project I wanted to do when I had finally figured it out, no it is my small attempt to tell you that (thank God) there is hope!! "Defining" myself by the worlds standards and my own unrealistic expectations, looking anywhere but to God to satisfy ....only leads to an unbearable ache in the soul. I have to ask myself everyday…... what is it going to be Kathlyn? And I am led to the truth. The truth of God’s word and it satifies….... giving into the pull of the world keeps me in a constant state of discontent and unfullfillment!! *And I realize that's it....it really is that simple. *Staying filled with the truth of God’s word leaves very little room for any lies that the world wants me to believe.

*By all means.....Stay Full. **Ps. 139

:)

K

San Francisco

Everbody says goodbye for now. These (besides a few that couldn't be in the picture today are the guys that made this happen - Thanks to Jerad, his wife Heather and Jason Gunther for making this happen - and all the guys that spent hours in the studio!!


It is Sunday my last day here in California and it is bittersweet. I am so grateful that God gave me the chance to try this again…..